Saturday, October 02, 2010

You're the toast of our lives!!


Time: Around 7:10am
Date: 27th July, 2010

I saw you for the very first time in my life...and I know you were seeing me for the first time as well. I was probably the 5th or 6th person you were seeing in your precious life of 30-odd minutes until that point in time. You were looking at me with eyes wide open...your hair was still wet and looked like it was just combed to perfection. You were wrapped in a green towel...the nurse at the hospital gave me your first Darshan for a few seconds before taking you back into the Maternity room.
You had arrived...You had arrived to me and Prabha after 6 years...the joy knew no bounds, though everything was masked in a camaflouge of emotions, as I was more anxious about so many other things - that you should be born normal, there should not be anything that I did not want to hear, and so on. In fact, I was exchanging angry notes with your grandfather (Prabha's father) and my mother, not letting them savour the moment either (all that was not really required is what I think now!)

Cut back to today:
Date: 2nd Oct, 2010
As I sit on my chair with leg bandaged and type this blog - 3 weeks since I saw you - eagerly waiting for the next opportunity to see you, hold you in my arms, cuddle you, kiss your forehead...

You are all my emotions...You are my world...You are the definition and purpose of my existence...You are the undefinable joy of my life...You are the most precious of anything...I'm sure Prabha would say exactly the same, perhaps even more! I know, she's completely forgotten herself to take care of you!

You are the toast of our lives! You are - whom we chose to call - Visvesh !!

Hail Parenthood...Hail babyhood!

Until I return with my next...
Penapunaivans
P.S.: My cousin brother, Prasad & his wife Kiruthiga, have been blessed with a baby girl this morning. I know the joy that must be running through every cell of their anatomy :)



Monday, August 25, 2008

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Saturday, January 06, 2007

Sachin & his times...

This one's in an instinctive response to the Editor's blog on rediffiland on the India-SA cricket series! As I started writing my response, I realised the character length limitation curtailed my freedom of ex-pression (!) and voila, here is my next blog posting !!
At the moment of posting of this comment, SA are well in command on the fifth/final day & are greatly poised to win the match and with it, the series too. However, Lady Luck has delayed it by a few hours...rain had stopped play with SA still needing about 90 runs to complete the series triumph, and play has just resumed. If not for the rains, it would've been all over by now. Well, the questions here are Do we really think India deserves to win this series, given their shoddy, lack-of-application batting on the 4th day? More importantly, what's happening to Sachin Tendulkar these days? Talking of Tendulkar, yes, I am a great fan of his... There were days when every move of this little master simply used to be a treat to savour! but these days, I think I've lost the confidence in him. He is hardly a shadow of his prime. I think it's not a matter of talent as much as it is a matter of his own inhibition when he gets into the act on the 22-yard stage. I think he's still enthusiastic anywhere else on the ground, whether he is fielding or bowling or sharing a thought or two with his captain in a tense moment of the game! Coming back to what I was saying, Yes, I think he gets too bogged down by his own self-doubts and not-able-to-define-exactly negativism that makes him an easy prey even to a bowler on debut (think of a Monty Panesar of England or a Harris of SA). It's this self-imposed inhibition that's pulling him down.
I don't know what could be the reasons for this...Is he too concerned about his commercial ventures (including that of his hotel business), or is it the education & future of his children or thoughts about how much money he should invest in what investment channel, just when he steps in and takes guard! True, health and fitness problems may be reasons, but then these have to be known pre-match so as to make sure he gives 100% when he's padded up. I'm sure it's not captaincy or anything of that sort either that's bothering him. He's too mature to be bogged down by all that.
I'd rather ask him to sit back in a lone room, and think hard to himself as to what he is contributing to Indian cricket. He should ask himself the question if he is really giving his 100% when he gets out to bat, what is it that's bothering him everytime he pads up, and what he needs to do to raise his level of game to somewhere near his prime. If he thinks his health or fitness is becoming a constant source of all his trouble, he better decide to quit one-day cricket (I don't know if he wants to do that immediately after the 2007 World Cup, but I hope he has atleast made a decision to that effect). I think he still has atleast another 2-3 years in Test cricket, provided he doesn't get worried about anything else. If he thinks his commitment levels are not the same as before, I sincerely suggest he decides to quit international cricket, a la McGrath & Warne who quit the game at their peak! If his inner conscience says 'Yes' to this question, he better quit the game for the good of himself and Indian cricket. Or if he thinks he still has some more cricket in him, he shld set himself targets match by match, take it by the innings and try to do justice to the role he is expected to play (that does not necessarily mean curbing his fluency with the bat, it's just the focus to play his natural game. He's been a winner because of his flamboyant batting style, rather than an orchestrated approach to batting).I think he has the mental maturity to do the talking to himself and come out of whatever it is that puts him in a shell when he goes out to bat. If he thinks he needs to, he can have a personal word with the coach or any other sportsperson or a practitioner of psychology, and I'm sure anyone on this earth whom he chooses to seek advice would be more than glad to help him out.Sachin - I do not want to see you being a shadow of the real YOU. For the sake of millions of followers like me, please come out of what you are trapped in!

Until I'm back with another...
~ Penapunaivan

Sunday, December 31, 2006

WELCOME 2007!!

Wishing You All a Very Very Happy, Healthy, Prosperous & Successful New Year! May this New Year bring in more joy than ever... joy that continues to grow everyday...May this New Year bring the much-needed Peace & "Shanti" to this planet!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Warm Regards,
Penapunaivan

Not really a blog...

Visit http://www.giveindia.org/ -- an online portal for philanthropists... You can choose from among a wide range of charity organizations to which you can donate online, instantly. Found this very useful to make a donation recently (on account of my birthday :)
It may be a small amount for us, but it may make a world of difference to someone, somewhere on this Earth! Let's touch that unknown someone's life through some good deeds :)

Sunday, September 17, 2006

My Partner for Life!!

A few thoughts that just oozed out of my heart thru' my fingers onto this page via the keyboard!!
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Sometimes you dwell in me - but
Sometimes I dwell in You!

Sometimes you are me...and
all the things around me!

Sometimes I long for you - but
Sometimes your stay's too long for me!

Sometimes I crave for you - but
Sometimes you drive me crazy!

Sometimes you overflow in me...still
creating a void in me!

It's only in your presence...that
I can feel absence!

Sometimes I want to be lost in you...'coz
you help me rediscover myself!

Sometimes I just want to
fallback on your shoulders...
lie down on your lap...and
cry holding your arms...
you lend me that subtle melancholy in my music...

You give me that big picture of life!
You make me understand how big I am...yet
(You) make me realise how miniscule I am!

Everytime I try to conquer you
I come out richer ...not because
I conquer you, but 'coz you
conquer me...

You are the big torch of light -
who's full of darkness...

The more I try to hold you in my control, the
more I end up being held in your control!

You are my best friend 'n foe...
Who I know shall die with me,
but still live to make others feel me
in the form of You!

You are my loneliness!
My one and only loneliness!
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~ PenaPunaivan

KK vs VV - A real quick verdict

Well, this one's a real quick one - a verdict on one of the hottest comparisons going abuzz in Kollywood over the past 4 weeks or so ... it's the comparison lines that are being drawn between Kakka Kakka (KK) and Vettayadu ViLayadu (VV)...the former being a path-breaker for Surya and the path-waving film (!) for the Surya-Jo romance. While the latter being yet another feather in the cap of the inimitable Kamal Hassan. I stop my reviews of the movies here and jump on to my verdict right away. I know most of you might wonder how stupid I could be in comparing it on the factor that I'm going to compare the two milestone movies in Tamil cinema (and directed by the same genius-in-the-making Gautham.M.), but I can't hold my views to myself and...what better a forum to put it down, than this blog... enough of the context-setting...here we go.

My simple verdict is that VV is the better of the two, and for the very simple reason that VV does not have any scenes of smoking/drinking (or alcohol consumption, if you want to call it that way!). KK had characters smoking or drinking almost every alternate frame and I thought that was not good for the young minds who aspire(d) to become Anbuchelvan, IPS, the main character of the movie. VV had nothing of that sort. I'm not sure if that was a specific condition put down by Kamal to Gautham, because I've read long back - about the time when his 'Indian' was released - that he did not want to be seen holding a cigarette in his movies. But hats off to whomever was the driving force behind it, the characters came out clean (even the negative characters were not shown to be smokers or drinkers).
Somehow, I've always held the opinion that if you cut down the unwanted show of heroism-means-smoking-and-drinking (or vice-versa), you can better reach the masses and convey your message in a more positive frame. Film-makers, Remember -- what you show on screen reaches out to millions and millions of fans, and the simple, (even, unintentional at times) visuals that you show on screen make the character and habits of many a youth of today.
Maybe, in this context, I've felt for quite a few years now, that if Superstar Rajni was to convey through any of his movies - in any of his stylish ways - that smoking is injurious to health and he wouldn't touch a cigarette in his life (atleast in the film!), I'm sure thousands of his diehard fans would give up the habit and thousands more would shy away from it if ever they had the inclination to go for it! The first positive step towards this was seen in his 'Chandramukhi' where none of the characters had a smoke or drink and I really appreciated the director P.Vasu, for that. We need our heroes to pass on the message to today's youth that smoking and drinking are injurious to health, instead of glorifying them or even showing themselves as coward habituals of such habits...

Hmmm, I started off to write a quick verdict on KK vs VV, but have ended up preaching! But anyways, this was one thing I had in mind for a pretty long time to share with the world, and now, I ended up putting it down here. Thanks for your patient reading.

Until I return with something more...

~ PenaPunaivan

Saturday, May 13, 2006

Budhia is not all alone there...

Well, The latest controversy to've hit the nation is that of young kid Budhia on his remarkable 7-hour non-stop marathon-run effort! Before I begin to put down my views here, let me admit that this is definitely an incredible feat and one only hopes that this was not drawn out of him by forceful exploitation. Having said that, I'm not really going to get deep into the case-history of Budhia himself, but am going to talk about so many others like him who are exploited for the money they can earn at such young ages in various other fields (Especially the cinema/media industry), right in front of our (public) eyes, and which we unfortunately do not think are real exploitations!
The first and might be the one such victim I'm going to talk about here and now, and probably the most intriguing thing in my mind, is Ayesha Kapoor. For starters, she was the child artist in the mega-success movie of last year, the winner-of-all-ABC...Z awards, "Black". While we admired and appreciated and were awe-struck by this young girl's performance on screen, hardly any of us would have thought of the hardships she would've been put through in freezing each of her frames to get the output that we all watched in great admiration on screen...think of the innumerable takes and re-takes, the pressure on her to get each and every movement of hers to a "T" and the long, arduous make-up sessions she would've had to go through on all shooting days. Think of all the sacrifices she would've been forced to make, in terms of taking days and months off her school, the number of days she would've missed being with her favourite friends and loving family (I understand she is in a boarding school, but I'm still sure she would've got some time out of her school to spend with her family/close ones). while on the one hand, I can't stop admiring her exemplary performance, on the other, I'm very much disturbed to think of all the hardships and pressures she would've been put through in getting that level of a performance from such a young kid, and I'm sure she was not born on a silver screen so as to say that she's a born-actress.
Don't we really think the Ayeshas of the world are as bad as the Budhias? If not, then why not? I'm sure kids of the age of Budhia and Ayesha would not really be matured enough to take it on them. Even if they are, celebrity status might take its toll on them as they grow up and may make them take the wrong course in life (classic case being that McCaulay Culcin, the celebrity-turned-drug addict who gave several of the "Home Alone" hits)
If so many Human Rights activists and groups are complaining in one voice against Budhia's "exploitation", then they should do the same against the exploitations of the Ayeshas... Whatever awards the Ayeshas might be getting for their performances cannot take away the fact that they are as badly exploited as the Budhias..the glitter of the tinsel world cannot undo or mask these atrocities being meted out to the young ones...
I'm not trying to judge whether Budhia's case was really anti-human or otherwise, but what I'm trying to say is there are definitely hundreds, or maybe thousands, of such cases that easily escape our eyes...and hold on, I'm not still talking about the millions of young child-labourers that we get to see day in and day out on our streets and factories (classic example being that of the under-privileged kids at the Sivakasi match factories :-(. I'm only talking about cases that have become celebrities by such instances...All the young, child models who are being made (read, forced) to perform on screen.
I don't have a solution or an answer to this problem yet, but I only wish that those who utilise such talents realise what they are doing and act responsibly. One of the ways the Government/Ministry of Child Welfare(or an equivalent ministry/department) can do is to regulate and strictly monitor the working hours, work environment, stress levels on such young ones. They could probably have a rule saying that any filming involving a kid (say, less than 12 yrs old) should be monitored by a Human Rights group member/activist and make sure the kid does not get over-worked, and is given sufficient breaks and gets to spend quality time with his/her friends and family. For kids who might be reaching a peak level of celebrity-dom or even making too many on-screen appearances, they might also have a monitoring programme to make sure they do not take to wrong paths early in their life!
Well, I guess I've lectured enough for now...until I return with something more...
~ PenaPunaivan

Sunday, December 11, 2005

A quick review of 'Rang de Basanti' soundtracks...

Just managed to get my copy of RDB today (for starters, itz 'Rang De Basanti', Aamir Khan's next flick with music by our own A.R.Rahman)...and well, it's just starting to grow on me as i'm listening to it the second time..(it's 3.45 am now..!)

Well, i just want to keep my comments short and crisp..here you go...

~ A welcome & different attempt by ARR, in a style and compilation not heard from him
before...simply puts the rest of the composers to dust...
~ Fresh and neat notes considering the all-crammed and cramped sound tracks you get to listen these days in the form of film music
~ Nice acoustics, esp. with the instrumentals and interludes
~ With due credit to ARR and each one of you, this is not an all-time hit (in the likes of Roja, Taal...)...but definitely a contemporary hit, and will be a chartbuster in the days to come
~ 'Tu Bin Bataaye' is the pick of the album to me (so far)...Madhushree is absolutely flawless.. slightly reminesces of some 60s, 70s melodies, but the comparison ends there...it's truly ARR beyond that...
~ Roo Baa Roo gets me to visualise the 'Dil Chahtha Hai' song in front of my eyes (all 3 guys driving their Merc to Goa)...got to wait and see if it does have any similarity in visuals/situation when the movie gets released...the guitar lead-in & background to the song gives it a touch of the early 80s ...

shall get you more of my review after a few more rounds of listening!

~ PEna Punaivan

Poem inspired by 'Anbe Sivam'

This is a poem that I had written after watching 'Anbe Sivam'...one of the very few meaningful films ever made in the history of cinema...written in total frustration over the materialistic nature of life ...
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unakkuL oru veRumai uruvaagi
un veRumaikkey nee aaLaagi

uNarvugaL sidhaindhu
uLLaThhai izhandhu

eNNangaLai AemaaTRi
yEdhO oru dhisai nOkki

udal mattum koNdu
uyirai izhandhu
vaazhum piNamena
veRum sidhaiyaai Thirindhu kondirukkindROm ...
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NandRi !!

~ Pena Punaivan.

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